Things are still�.odd these days. I�m trying to have fun with my baby, I�m trying to keep myself from slipping backwards but I have moments when I just don�t feel right. I�m just tired, I guess. Another supervisor position is opening up and I�ve decided to hide in the corner. I can�t take on more responsibility right now. I bought a new blouse today. Size medium. I felt really good putting it on. I tried it on in the dressing room. I actually looked ok in the mirror. You know�I used to have a kick ass body. USED TO being the key words in that sentence. Now�.well, it�s ok. Not exactly drop dead gorgeous but I think I have a sexy figure�.if you don�t pay attention to the stretch marks or the weird skin that kind of hangs out around my midsection. I�m feeling thinner, even though I really haven�t lost any weight in a few months. Maybe it�s because Mike makes me feel beautiful. That always helps. Anyway, I tried on the shirt. Its form fitting around the waist, something I would have shied away from a couple of months ago. I smiled at myself. I can�t remember the last time I smiled at myself. Actually I really don�t remember the last time I smiled while trying something on. It felt good. It felt familiar. A size medium is good.