So I�ve been in the process of cleaning out my emotional clutter for the past two weeks. Most of it is done through hypnosis and communicating with my self-conscious mind. Things may seem wonderful to my conscious mind but apparently there�s been a lot of stuff lurking underneath. During one of my self-hypnosis sessions I came across something very disturbing. In this session I go into my home (wherever I feel safest) open all of the windows and let light come into the room. I then go down into the basement and find boxes that are filled with clutter. All this stuff is representative of all of the emotional clutter that I�ve been holding on to. Next to these boxes is a big black hole that I drop all of the useless clutter into. Then I go outside into a big beautiful garden and everything is peaceful. Well in my session, I went down stairs into the basement and there were all of the boxes of �receipts� and things that I needed to dump into the hole. Suddenly those boxes weren�t boxes anymore but an ice locker. You know, the type that you find at the morgue where dead bodies are stored. So I open the first drawer and there�s a child in it. Around 3 or 4 years old. I open another one and there is another child in it. Around the same age. I gently lift the first child and start to dump her into the hole but I just can�t do it. I pulled myself out of hypnosis and wrote it in my note book of things to talk to Trish (hypnobirth coach) about. Well during my session with her yesterday I told her about my experience, �How old were these children?� �They were around 3 to 5 years old. I really couldn�t tell.� �Have you had a miscarriage in the last 3 to 5 years?� I froze. �Yes I have.� So we talked about the affair and everything that happened afterwards. I talked about my ex-husband Vince and the amount of disgust I felt for myself because of the way things ended. �Do you forgive yourself?� �Yes.� �Do you forgive Vince for the things that he did?� �Yes.� �Do you forgive the boyfriend?� �Yes. I feel at peace about everything. I just don�t understand why it lingers.� �There are psychic connections linking everyone in the universe, especially those that we connect to on a personal level. Usually these connections happen in order to learn lessons and to grow. As far as the unborn child that you still grieve, you have to understand that maybe that child came to you for so short of a time so that you could gain something from the experience. Or maybe he was meant to be born into a certain type of life and that life changed with a single decision.� So we decided to do a psychic chord exercise. I brought myself into hypnosis and then Trish led me through the steps. �Imagine that Vince is outside the door. He will not come inside or harm you. Do you feel his presence?� �Yes.� �Where in your body do you feel it?� �In my throat and in my chest.� �Now imagine that the feeling in your throat and chest is a chord with branches inside your body. Pull that chord out, making sure that all of the branches are safely out. Now find his light.� I searched looking for him. And there he was, a bright greenish light. �Now push those branches into his light. Thank him for the lessons that he taught you, bless his heart. �Vince, I don�t need this chord anymore. Thank you for everything you have taught me. May you find peace.� Let me know when you are done.� I did as she asked, giving the chord of light back to Vince and wishing him all of the happiness in the world. �Now find your own light and pull a chord from it. Make sure that this chord is a golden divine light from your higher self and place that chord into the hole that Vince left.� I did this, although it took me a while to find my own light. It was a bright blue light that completely surrounded me.� �Are you ready to move on to Abe?� �Yes.� �Ok, imagine that he is outside this door. He cannot come in or hurt you. Do you feel his presence? Where is it in your body?� �In my chest and in my stomach.� I was then prompted to pull out the chord and to find his light. I found it difficult but when I did it was a darker blue with hints of yellow around the edges. I returned his chord to him and thanked him for the lessons I had learned from him. �I don�t need this anymore. I appreciate what I have learned from you. May the Divine be with you and may you have peace.� I pulled a golden chord from my own light and decided on a whim to find Mike�s light. A bright shining blue green...yellowish light that had it�s own golden chord connected to me. I felt very peaceful. Trish then asked, �Are you done connecting your chord?� �Yes.� �Are there any other toxic chords linked to you?� �No.�